feeling like this. i never really write stuff like this here, i have another blog for that. but meh. i can’t post pictures of pretty bikes all the time right? heh. this place used to feel like home but now i just feel lost. i miss jess. i miss having someone i could talk to about everything. i’m beyond stressed out…pretending that i’m not that stressed out. i hate feeling like no matter what, i’m always doing something wrong or that i’m going to do something wrong. everything that i want is always just out of my reach somehow. i like you, but i can’t actually have you because my life is so god damned unstable and i can’t fix it with this stupid job. will you still want me once i’m not waking up in your bed every morning anyway? who knows. i don’t know. i feel really, really off tonight. i want to curl into a ball and hide. let’s see if that works

forever getting ahead of myself