February 2012
27 posts
going to
possibly take a nap and riding bikes in the city for a while with steve. it’s going to be a very long next few weeks.
dear evil bike nerd, i miss your face a whole hell of a lot.
NYC friends
I need a place to crash for a little bit. I’ll buy you groceries and give you a little money. We can ride bikes together. It’d be fun.
Grabbing my bike, riding around the city for a bit alone and then getting on a bus to go to Allentown and see Graham.
i'm going to
ride my bike into the city because i want to drink coffee at continuum :)
Riding the fuji home from manhattan with Steve :)
so yesterday a good friend told me
something that made me laugh at the time. but now i kind of want to jump off a bridge. or hide in my house.
“let me tell you something about boys that race bikes. we are the worst people to fall in love with.”
i mean, i don’t love you. not even close. but that’s not the point. the point is, even just liking you is hard. and aggravating. and i just don’t understand...
This holiday is stupid
But I got chocolates from a boy in a messenger center. Haha. Ok back to being crazy busy
There are so many
Obnoxious people screaming about football in grand central. I want to kick people in the face. I’m too hungover for this haha
best friend got into town today
i am decently drunk. got a sandwich. time to eat said sandwich and pass the fuck out. work tomorrow.
seeing you makes me happy. that’s all
One too many whiskey floats. Oof. Passing out because I have work in the morning
hooray for saturdays
going to do laundry and then drinking. possibly lots of drinking. it should be a good night. tomorrow should be alright too.
you know sometimes
you have to remind yourself that there isn’t always a happy ending. there is no “if i try hard enough i can have whatever i want” ….nope. wrong. really, really wrong. especially with people. sometimes it doesn’t matter how happy you are with someone, it doesn’t matter what you say to them or what you try to do. sometimes you just have to walk away and hope that...
I need
Someone to talk to. I feel so alone in this city right now.
I’m just wondering if you think about me half as much as I think about you. Ugh
January 2012
42 posts
So I’ve been sitting at continuum since I got out of work. Had a really terrible day. This place makes me feel a lot better. Bike shops are comforting. I’m sick of feeling defeated. I’m sick of everything always falling apart. I just want to be stable. Right now I really just want someone to hold me.
You. I like you. Please do not give up on me quite yet.
I know I have...
It’s going to be a long day. At least it’s relatively warm. Fuck this rain though. Coffee, breakfast cookie, work all day.
Weird mood. I just took a nice shower and I’m sitting on the couch. I kinda just want to eat dinner, cuddle and sleep. Blah.
I just want you to like me. I know my life isn’t perfect but I’m trying. I’ll get there. I want to curl up in bed with you and pass out.
Probably going to fall asleep on the couch reading about Paris-roubaix
i just feel like
i can’t impress you. and i don’t know what i’m doing. or why i’m even trying.
i’m always the weird overly emotional one. why can’t i just be normal? there’s always a lot that i want to say, but i just don’t because i don’t think i should feel that way…like it’s not appropriate or something.
I feel like I can’t do or say anything right at the moment. It’s going to be a long day
Oh. And it’s snowing.
Going to go hide in bed with a book.
Getting anxious. I don’t like this feeling. Stop it, self. Stop over thinking. Stop worrying. Stop doubting yourself. Ugh.
How am I in this good of a mood this early? Best way to wake up :) now to put clothes on and talk bike things with Steve over coffee
you know what really sucks?
feeling like this. i never really write stuff like this here, i have another blog for that. but meh. i can’t post pictures of pretty bikes all the time right? heh. this place used to feel like home but now i just feel lost. i miss jess. i miss having someone i could talk to about everything. i’m beyond stressed out…pretending that i’m not that stressed out. i hate feeling...
Dear Brooklyn
Stop being rainy and miserable.
I need to stop thinking/feeling/getting ahead of myself/giving a fuck.
Why am I always stuck in cuddle buddy status? Ugh. Why do I even care at this point?
Jess, come back and tell me to stop having feelings
so fucking confused right now.
i don’t understand people. do you hate me, do you not hate me, did you hate me because your girlfriend sucked? like come on now. make up your mind. i miss you, but TOTALLY not going through that bullshit again. lovely.
fan mail.....
this is real. why
devidamuerta asked: What I don't get and what i've never understood is why someone has to say that shit to you anonymously... I mean really. If you people(person) really think that Danielle is such a fuck up, you should probably say it behind a face.. on top of if you really want to try to prove your point, set an example. Anyways, with that being said.. I love you butter cup. And I've supported your...
